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I just went back and read some of the horrible comments I've received from people in the past.
I remember how hurtful it was and how much I wanted to just dissapear from it all. I felt helpless and hopeless.

The internet can be a terrible place.

When people aren't accountable for what they say they feel a certain sense of power. The ability to judge others without being judged ourselves is a position of immense dominance. It's exhilarating to exercise that dominance over another person.

But now, looking back, I realize that it doesn't bother me anymore. I don't even bother hiding, deleting or responding to those comments because it just doesn't bug me. I feel a resounding "eh",

I keep those comments up so that people can see the kind of behaviour that people reduce themselves to when they're behind a computer screen. Every "this is shit" or ""he" is just a dyke and a "she"" has meaning to me now. It means that I've overcome something that I never would have thought possible. I'm not hurt by that anymore. Why would I be?

I know my cosplay isn't great. But I love to do it so negative comments aren't going to stop me. Really you're just telling me what I already know! And it pushes me to try harder next time which is always positive. As for the more personal comments... well, I am who I am. And although I've been prone to pretty intense insecurity and self-dissastifaction in the past, I'm in the best shape of my life right now (physically and psychologically)... and I owe a lot of that to criticism and negativity. It only pushes me to keep going.

I'm happy. And I'm thankful that I don't need to lurk behind anonymity and animosity to feel exhilaration and strength. I feel that every day when I look back at how far I've come and look forward to how bright the future looks.
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Claireobie Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2012
I think you're a beautiful and truly inspiring person. I don't need to you that shit happens because you know that. All I can tell you is that those people who knock others down clearly are lacking something. The fact that you don't feel the need to take others down truly shows how much you are comfortable with yourself, which makes you the better person. I wish you the best in the future! Keep cosplaying and doing what you love because it makes me (and tons of others) really happy!
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Wily383 Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2012
What does kill you gives our show better ratings!! ....But seriously though, I know what you're talking about. I've been in similar situations, except it was middle school/high school instead of the internet. After a while, you just kinda harden yourself and become immune to it all. Now that I'm in college, I really don't have to worry about people like that anymore, so it's kinda nice.
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FullMoon2012 Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I think your cosplays are awesome. o u o Seriously, they always have looked awesome to me.
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Tsukikumoon Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2012
Yeah true say! You go! ^^
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XxMikki-MomoxX Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I've been dealing with that for awhile now.... You are really strong for being able to do this. I really look up to you!
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Sasuke-Uchiha-Luver7 Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
That is just awesome that you are able to think like that!! It just proves how great of a person you are :)
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claudia999 Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2012
you are awesome!!! and you know why...because you are stronger than they!!

go your way and always look forward :)
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IzzyMcspaz Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2012
Honestly, I don't get why people say your cosplays suck, because they don't. You inspired many people, including my friends and I.
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ZelaStormz Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I agree, you and Nova got my friend and I into cosplaying. If it wasn't for you, we would be sitting at home starring at a wall, so I agree with IzzyMcspaz.
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LittleTwiddleTweaker Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2012
GO TWINFOOLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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